Friend. Boyfriend.
Once upon a time, a boy picked up a weight, and fell in love. Once upon the same time, a girl saw his muscles, and got wet.
Well, not so much.
The lines of friendship between men and women have often been crossed, barely visible and straddeled. Someone is always asking, does he/she like me? what are we? At some point, friends look at each other and think of a potential “What if?” thinking if they went past the friendship line and became something more. For the lucky few, that happens at the same time and they end up in ever lasting love. For the unlucky few, we end up pondering this forever until some other person is flaunted in front of our face as the “one.”
After a few months of this back and forth friend / boyfriend relationship, I have finally decided to no longer let this man take over my entire existence. I have said “no” to several dates and invites out, but didn’t care. Recently, there is someone who I have decided is worth my effort in return. I mentioned this to my now, “friend” who has proceeded for a few days to insult, belittle, berate and impersonate this new guy. Being that we all go to the same gym, my “friends” presence up my ass while this new guy is around, is completely apparent - waving his dick around whenever he can just to claim me, without really having a claim.
My immediate thought, I am not a tree. You are not a dog. You cannot pee on me and claim me to be yours. You cannot throw out your old toy and then get annoyed when the kid down the block is playing with it. What is with having to SCARE men into doing the right thing? AND if he finally came around to a commitment now, is it because he had a revelation or is he just scared? How can you be with someone when you’ll end up thinking he wouldnt want this had he not been forced in some capacity?
